You don't have to keep walking away right before it works

When the pattern repeats

This isn't a lack of willpower. It's a pattern that learned to protect you by pulling out first.

You quit a job right when it starts going well. You pull away from someone right when things get close. Every time there's a different reason, but the shape repeats: something starts to work, and an impulse shows up out of nowhere telling you to leave — before anyone else can. It isn't a decision you sit down and think through; it's an urge that arrives all at once and gets acted on almost automatically. For a lot of people who move between Spanish and English every day, that impulse got wired in early — in the years you learned that leaving first hurt less than being left, or that nothing good was safe to hold onto for long.

Therapy doesn't ask you to just push through and stay next time. It helps you notice that impulse before you act on it, understand what it's protecting you from, and build a different way to respond — so staying stops feeling like a risk and becomes a choice you actually get to make.